Some Yoga & Panic attacks
This week had been pretty uneventful until today. So was going through the daily routine and then I had a sort of panic attack or something. I had breakfast at about 9:30-10 and hadn't eaten anything for a while. Around 3 PM, felt really weak & queasy. So then had couple glasses of Vitamin C drink for easy revival. Also ate a lot of stuff like chocolates, cookies n now feeling very guilty about it. Since the incident, was feeling pretty weak today. I was feeling really good in the morning, have no clue how things changed so fast.
I have a doc's visit to get a refill of medicines on friday. I haven't really done any productive task for last 2 1/2 months and now feeling very stupid & guilty about it. Whenever I start any activity, I just lose focus and end up watching some crap tv(even watched few episodes of Gossip Girl once :P) or listen to music. Like I setup everything to start my guitar lessons n found the tuner was low on power or something. So instead of working on getting it fixed I watched Dexter & Homeland episodes back to back !
Last week had been to a yoga session. Basically it was mostly informative lecture, followed up by consultation by doctors. So these doctors and counselor will talk to you and will write down your profile for the instructor. Like what kind of exercises you should not be permitted to do, diet to follow, practices, etc. Guess what, I got rejected. lol. I really don't know how to explain, but they took all my case history and the consultation like went on forever. Finally at 5:30 was feeling very tired since had to sit on the floor the whole time ! Yeah ! They had chairs which were filled up by some old folks and I thought it would be really embarrassing to ask some one ! Anyhow we need to do yoga on the floor, so thought it would be good practice. But my feet hurt when I tried to get up at the end.
Anyhow the good part about the yoga session was the small pep talk given by the founder's wife and some video session that they had. Some advice given to me - walks, exposure to early morning sun (vitamin d, but then i told them about the DM rash,etc... so they were non commital on it), to become less emotional and be moderate (can't help it sometimes though) and crap load on diet. Well since May, I have been a vegan and stopped all fried , fatty food. So kind of slept through the diet speech and frankly I am not going to cut down on any sweets or anything ! Also, after the rejection they actually told me to come on saturday and attend a consultation again. Hopefully they might show some yoga exercises, can't take more lectures !
They also asked me how spiritual I am. Since prayers are a very personal thing to me, cut them short and told that its very personal and I prefer not to attend any religious functions,etc. But since then have tried to be bit more spiritual and have been visiting a temple nearby when I go for my evening walks.
Among other things, always wondered how people in different parts of the world live with Dermatomyositis or Optic Nerve Atrophy. I mean like while traveling by bus, train or work,etc. Will probably write something about life in Mumbai while dealing with them !
Ciao n Peace.
I have a doc's visit to get a refill of medicines on friday. I haven't really done any productive task for last 2 1/2 months and now feeling very stupid & guilty about it. Whenever I start any activity, I just lose focus and end up watching some crap tv(even watched few episodes of Gossip Girl once :P) or listen to music. Like I setup everything to start my guitar lessons n found the tuner was low on power or something. So instead of working on getting it fixed I watched Dexter & Homeland episodes back to back !
Last week had been to a yoga session. Basically it was mostly informative lecture, followed up by consultation by doctors. So these doctors and counselor will talk to you and will write down your profile for the instructor. Like what kind of exercises you should not be permitted to do, diet to follow, practices, etc. Guess what, I got rejected. lol. I really don't know how to explain, but they took all my case history and the consultation like went on forever. Finally at 5:30 was feeling very tired since had to sit on the floor the whole time ! Yeah ! They had chairs which were filled up by some old folks and I thought it would be really embarrassing to ask some one ! Anyhow we need to do yoga on the floor, so thought it would be good practice. But my feet hurt when I tried to get up at the end.
Anyhow the good part about the yoga session was the small pep talk given by the founder's wife and some video session that they had. Some advice given to me - walks, exposure to early morning sun (vitamin d, but then i told them about the DM rash,etc... so they were non commital on it), to become less emotional and be moderate (can't help it sometimes though) and crap load on diet. Well since May, I have been a vegan and stopped all fried , fatty food. So kind of slept through the diet speech and frankly I am not going to cut down on any sweets or anything ! Also, after the rejection they actually told me to come on saturday and attend a consultation again. Hopefully they might show some yoga exercises, can't take more lectures !
They also asked me how spiritual I am. Since prayers are a very personal thing to me, cut them short and told that its very personal and I prefer not to attend any religious functions,etc. But since then have tried to be bit more spiritual and have been visiting a temple nearby when I go for my evening walks.
Among other things, always wondered how people in different parts of the world live with Dermatomyositis or Optic Nerve Atrophy. I mean like while traveling by bus, train or work,etc. Will probably write something about life in Mumbai while dealing with them !
Ciao n Peace.
posted by Prasad @ 12:40 AM
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